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Does anyone else out there get superstitious about stupid things?

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The last post I made was when my father died in 2010. I know this is going to sound stupid but I blamed writing on this post for my father dying. When I was younger I tried many times to start a journal. Everyone told me that writing would be cathartic for my soul. (I was a very sensitive young person) Each time that I started a journal something bad would occur after my writing. I started to feel that journal writing for me would make bad things happen to me. So I stopped writing each time and at 15, never journaled again. Then in 2009, I thought it would be great to start a blog to journal my Master's degree journey. Boom! My father died. I would love to continue journaling on this blog and sharing my experiences, but I'm terrified. So, if I do not post again, not that I have anything great to say, I'm sorry blog 😢
I know it has been a while since I last posted. But, August was not a good month for me. I lost my father on August 14. It was a very unexpected loss. We knew that he had heart disease but he was not feeling bad or anything. He just passed away in his chair at the computer, his favorite spot. I think it was way too much stress from a family lawsuit that he was dealing with. So with his death, my husband and I had to move from the family farm. It will be sold at auction hopefully without too much delay to pay off his estate bills. Moving and losing a parent in one month is very stressful. I haven't dealt with it all that well. I'm also unemployed and have been looking for work. That just adds to the stress. I am taking a month off from school to get all Dad's stuff tied up. I just want to sit down and have a long long long cry. But there are too many things to be done. Maybe my next post will be happier.
WOOO HOO!!! My first Assignment on my first graduate class is complete and turned in. This was my first big step. I am so psyched. This whole graduate degree is going to take me completely out of my comfort zone. I'm not a big writer. Well, I should say that I am not a creative or lengthy writer. I am a business writer. Short and sweet. Also, I have never done any research on actual subjects. I also have an interview on Tuesday. Wish me luck. I'd like to join the employed ranks again. Well, for my reward for doing my first assignment (I have to reward myself since I'm such a procrastinator), I am going to surf the web for new fun things. Maybe something PINK? hahaha! Do they make chickens in Pink???

What am I thinking??

Ok, I have just started my Master's degree. I want to be a farm girl, starting with raising chickens. I want to take care of my family. I'm unemployed. Now, I'm starting this blog. What am I thinking? It's not like I have nothing else to do. I'm not even a good writer. I think that is part of why I started this blog. Oh well. I'm excited to see where this journey, my life, is going to lead. Stay tuned!